So. I realised that I haven’t actually sat down and written a piece for my own personal enjoyment in literally two months. Without going into too much detail, the last couple of months have been full of change for me and I’m coming out the other side with a new outlook on a lot of things. Since this is a start of a new chapter for me, I feel like it should be a new chapter for my blog as well. Because when your life is turning upside down (or right side up, really, since I’m feeling pretty positive) what better thing to do than document as much of it as possible?
Having had a few months off of writing just for myself has got me thinking. I started my blog to give myself a space to write my own words, a space where I can get down all the random thoughts in my head and explore ideas that I’m interested in, with no other agenda. Because, let’s face it; I write better than I talk (that last sentence excluded). I think for me, it’s so important to get my thoughts down somewhere, just to keep myself from living life inside my own head.
Recently, I’ve let myself slip and I just don’t feel motivated to write for myself anymore. Even as I write this, I’m staring at the screen trying to remember how words work and make sense of what I’m trying to say.
So, as the first step in my new life chapter or whatever we’re going to call it, I’ve decided to make a concerted effort to commit myself to creating my own things even if it literally makes my brain explode in the process.
And, to explain the title, that’s why this post is called a saga. I Googled it, obviously, and a saga literally means “a long story of heroic achievement” (it also says “a medieval prose narrative in Old Norse or Old Icelandic” but I’m choosing to ignore that bit).
Since I write words every day for a living, it can feel like a heroic effort to motivate myself to write anything else at the end of the day. And since I’ve been noticing myself slipping back into some of my old patterns of depression and anxiety, I feel like I need to rediscover an outlet for my thoughts, away from work and away from the pieces I happen to be researching at the time.
So, with that all said, I’m excited to get started on some new ideas for the blog and to get back to writing about the things that make me happiest.